So here I am again in Ohio, wondering why I came, but at the same time knowing why. Driving from Dayton back to Hillsboro, I loved watching the green lush scenery and the never ending land of crops upon crops. I love that about Ohio, it's so GREEN! :-) I think.... I lost my train of thought. So yes, I'm here for the family reunion that I haven't been to since I was a kid and I'm sorta excited to be meeting family that I've never met and to see some family that I haven't seen in years, or at least since April when my Grandpa died. I'm anxious to see what this mini trip brings.

Quiet Summer

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, it's been a quiet summer for me here. I've been working a lot and stopped serving and am just hosting. Hopefully I'll go back to serving once I give my shoulder a break but we'll see. I could really use the money. Classes are still going well and I was up a few weekends this summer to stay with Grandma in Denver for some photography workshops. I would love to move up here and finish that degree. Grandma doesn't understand why I'm doing it and just wants me to teach- when I don't want to do that remotely. I'm looking more into counseling, something like I did with Smart Girl! Woot! Also, I'm going back to Ohio Labor Day weekend. I need a little escape and I'm also just wanting more time to reflect on this year. My Great Aunt died this summer so that brings this number to 3. No one else is sick enough to die in my family so here's to hoping. (that sounds horrible I know, but really... I'm not even done grieving for the previous person and then someone else dies... argh)

On the road

Driving back to Ohio to bury my Grandfather... tis a strange feeling. I am left unsure of how I feel. I know that I haven't let much get to be and I've become numb in many ways. I feel like I've been an empty shell-- but I also feel relieved. Is that wrong? I love roadtrips, thus the title of the blog. I like to imagine that I'm always on an adventure. There was a time in my life when I didn't go a year without being on plane some where, or in a car heading somewhere. I love that about my life and it is actually one thing that I loved about being a military brat. I got to see a lot, meet some great people, make the best friends and in the end, took all my experiences with me. This year, my roadtrips are going to consist of mainly driving back and forth between home and Denver for classes- that should be interesting, but I get to stay with my Grandmother, so I'm looking forward to that. I'm trying to find the feelings that I feel like I should be having, the emotions I should be displaying, but I don't know that I will in the coming week, much less the coming month. I've become so numb and so blaize about my feelings that I'm wondering if I will ever be able to feel again. *sighs* I'm finally going to try and get some sleep on this funky pull our chair bed thing.